June 2013

wow! Tak sangka saya berjaya mengharungi hampir sparuh tahun 2013. a few months back, i was wondering how i'm going to face this year. everything was not right from the first hour, first minute and first second of the year. i fight alone for something i really want and i failed. and then i found something else to work on and to concentrate on. now, i know i'm failing but i guess i'm not giving up yet. And surprisingly, something new came up, which requires me to fight alone as well. Something new keeps on coming at least, every week.

all the decisions that i made was not right from the beginning. even the good news gives a bad impact. since i'm scared,  i decided to not make any long term decision yet. to not involve or commit. well, now i'm not sure whether thats a good decision or not.

I need more positive energy than ever. I'm using up all my patience and all my strength that now i'm afraid that i might end up used all of them and nothin left anymore, i need someone that would give me the right word for my wrongs. Not laugh n telling around bout it. I need more positive words, not sarcastic word, more happy moments, not fake moments. All in all, i need my friends.

after all those thing,i'm glad and thankful that i'm still smiling and living my life, finding positive thing around me and being happy for others. I don't know if this is only a process of growing up, making someone mature or strong, or just a trial before starting to face the real cruel world. Whatever it is, i'm just hoping for things to get better in time.

Hello second half of the year, lets rock n roll!