how it ends?

they know each other for a few years, and now when things get rough, they make it worse. there are a few things that they fail to think of.

After all these years, if you think the person do not know things bout your life, your feelings your relations, your so and so, what makes you to think that you know everything bout the person's?

why complaining bout you being judged when you do the same thing?

Is it possible that there is something wrong with every single person around you and not you? think again...

Just because you think you are smarter, it doesn't mean you are really smart.

Do not complain about honestly when all you do is manipulating your story to make it interesting.

You are so retarded that now you are willing to let go a friendship just because a silly issue. smart eh?

Friends or lovers, the last thing you ever wish to happen is regret of something that once made you smile.... 

Friendship day

bila sebenarnya friendship day? i believe friendship day tu jatuh pada bulan august. tadi sy try google, resultnya pada first sunday of every august, dimana pada tahun ni, friendship day jatuh pada 4 august. pas2 terjumpa lgi satu artikel yg mengatakan sebenarnya pada 30 Julai. pening dh.

As usual, sy x percaya pada day2 merepek ni. ajaran sesat! BUT!!!!! every 3rd august is special to me. tarikh tu adalah hasil gabungan tarikh lahir saya n kawan saya, and kami celebrate hati tu sebagai friendship day kami.

HAPPY FRIENDSHIP DAY G

Alone but not lonely

Most of the people are afraid to be alone. They are afraid of the loneliness. They hate the feeling that no one is there by their side. well, i'm not one of them. To me, in future, if anything happens, i want to be able to survive alone, without feeling lonely, and without being dependent on anyone. At the end of your life, you'll be alone down there anyway.

Spend some time with yourself and believe me, you'll find out many thing bout you that you never know.

Soon...

i'll start to write again very soon.

As soon as i finish my 'raya cleaning'.

As soon as i settle my pending things with my brother

As soon as i recover from that stupid 6 months job effect.

June 2013

wow! Tak sangka saya berjaya mengharungi hampir sparuh tahun 2013. a few months back, i was wondering how i'm going to face this year. everything was not right from the first hour, first minute and first second of the year. i fight alone for something i really want and i failed. and then i found something else to work on and to concentrate on. now, i know i'm failing but i guess i'm not giving up yet. And surprisingly, something new came up, which requires me to fight alone as well. Something new keeps on coming at least, every week.

all the decisions that i made was not right from the beginning. even the good news gives a bad impact. since i'm scared,  i decided to not make any long term decision yet. to not involve or commit. well, now i'm not sure whether thats a good decision or not.

I need more positive energy than ever. I'm using up all my patience and all my strength that now i'm afraid that i might end up used all of them and nothin left anymore, i need someone that would give me the right word for my wrongs. Not laugh n telling around bout it. I need more positive words, not sarcastic word, more happy moments, not fake moments. All in all, i need my friends.

after all those thing,i'm glad and thankful that i'm still smiling and living my life, finding positive thing around me and being happy for others. I don't know if this is only a process of growing up, making someone mature or strong, or just a trial before starting to face the real cruel world. Whatever it is, i'm just hoping for things to get better in time.

Hello second half of the year, lets rock n roll!

nothing to do

i was sitting on my table doing nothing this morning. thats super surprising. people are busy with their 'permanent staff' thing and i was doing nothing. nothing at all. staring at my inbox. hoping for someone to send any ridiculous e-mail and driving me crazy.

NONE.

so, saya tinggal 44 hari lgi keje kat company ni. lps tu contract sy akan habis. saya x rsa mereka akan renew contract or offer sy keje kt syarikat tu. klu diorng offer pon saya xnk. keje sana mcm x sesuai dgn saya. so sy kene menganggur blk skrng ni pon dh mulakan job hunt.

i miss my friends all the time. since 2008, my life is all about my friends. Alhamdulillah, saya selalu dpt kawan yg elok2, yg x mess up dgn hidup sy, yang x gado2 and yg x byk bermasalah. never had a rough relationship with any of them. ntah mana silapnya, kebetulan kawan sy sume yg ddk jauh2. dh hbs blaja sume dh blk kampung halaman masing2. cari rezeki di sana. yang tinggal kt KL pon, punyalah payah nk jumpa. klu plan nk jumpa pon masa tulah byk sgt halangan. balik kampung or akan ada pape kenduri yg kene attend. skrng, klu tgk fb orng lain post gamba mereka beramai2, mesti rsa mcm... "untunglaa". mungkin sy patut smbng blaja. tapi bkn di UM. di universiti yg jauh sikit. ddk kt hostel. cari kawan baru plak.

kadang2 sy x fhm kenapa ada laki yg akn kata diorng kehilangan kebebasan, ketenangan n mcm2 lgi lps kawen. u have no idea what a woman lose once she get married to you idiots!

dan saya xnk kawen lagi....