Monday, April 21, 2014

People that i meet on my way to work

keluar je dari block saya, selalunya sy akn jumpa 3 orng yg berbeza.

maid indon. kadang2 dia lap keta bos dia kat parking lot sambil bersembang dgn bos dia yg tgh kemas kat dalam keta. kadang2 nampak dia jalan kehulu kehilir sorang2. kadang2 nampak dia sembang dengan orang lalu lalang or dengan guard. tapi x pernah tegur sy pon.

Abang kutip sampah. dalam 5-6 orang tu, ada sorng laki ni muka dia ala2 chinese/indon/filipina. x kisahlah dia tgh load sampah dalam lori, or baru sampai n still bergayut ats lori, or tgh bersiap pegi ke destinasi seterusnya, setiap kali saya lalu dia mesti akn tegur. sy pernah dengar dia kata 'hai' n ayat yang ada perkataan 'kerja'. mostly sy x dengar dia cakap apa sebab bunyi lori tu kuat sangat. tapi dia akan tegur. saya just jalan tunduk kepala x pandang kiri x pandang kanan. skrng ni mcm2 kes. better jual mahal

chinese couple. couple ni akan jalan berpegang tangan ke keta diorang kat parking lot. parking lot diorng mcm jauh sikit dari rumah diorng. diorng jalan sambil berpegang tangan dan bersembang. kalau diorng x sembang pon, sambil jalan tu dia akn saling berpandangan and then senyum to each other. that is really sweet. tak pernah sekali pon saya nampak diorng jalan x berpegang tangan or dengan muka masam. mesti muka senyum. the way they look at each other is full of love. saya tak taulah diorng tu newly married ke or apa. just harap diorng akn buat mcm tu selama2nya sebab tanpa diorng sedar, they somehow make others to feel better. they make others to feel the presence of love on the air. 

Kat bus stop

2 orang. saya xtaulah diorng ni roommate ke, housemate ke, kawan ke, officemate ke or adik beradik ke or apa. sorng ni pendek je, selalu berkemeja and seluar slack, sekali pandang nmpk mcm laki jambu ala2 korea tapi sebenarnya prmpn. sorng lagi tinggi kurus, kadang2 pakai skirt labuh n kadang2 sampai lutut, dua2 tak bertudung. saya xtau diorang jalan dari mana ke mana. saya pernah nampak diorng jalan cross entrance umah saya which means umah diorng lagi jauh kedalam. and paling jauh saya prnh nmpk diorng depan nexus, complex baru depan bangsar south. saya rasa diorng berjalan kaki setiap pagi dari area umah saya ke lrt universiti. jauh tu!!!! tapi diorng selalu bersembang. saya rasa diorng mesti x terasa kejauhan perjalanan diorng tu. mereka selalu buat saya rindu berjalan jauh berteman. i used to have a friend who will walk with me, by my side, for as long as we can walk. semoga saya akn jumpa seorng yg kedekut yg x sanggup bayar RM1 untuk bas rapid and ajak saya teman dia jalan sampai ke stesen LRT.

mother n baby. mereka akn jalan cross saya masa saya menunggu bas. saya x pernah tau diorng berjalan ke mana but saya just anggap mak dia, berbangsa indon, membawa baby tu ke tempat kerja. first sy nampak diorng, baby tu sangatlah kecik. mungkin baru 3-4 bulan, selalu tido. skrng dh besar, sangat comel and senyum kat sape2 je yg dia nampak. such a bundle of joy.

chinese n foreigner. diorng ni nmpk macam suami isteri. mereka muncul berdua sambil berpegang tangan. prmpn ni pregnant, berpakaian office and laki ni botak, berpakaian t-shirt n seluar pendek paras lutut. laki tu ada tatu kt kaki dia. bila bas sampai, mereka akn berkiss di public and perempuan ni pegi office n laki ni berjalan balik. i always wonder sama ada laki tu keje shift malam n anta wife sampai ke bus stop pas2 balik umah n tido or dia stay home husband.

sebenarnya ramai lagi yg sy nmpk masa sy tgh tunggu bas seperti geng student foreigner UM, body builder yg pendek tapi badan mcm hulk, and prmpn slow motion. tapi sy x tergerak nk cite psl diorng.

and saya malas nk bercerita pasal selebihnya yg sy jumpa dalam bas, kt stesen LRT and otw jalan ke office. so, till next idea to type,

bye bye

Friday, April 11, 2014

Broken Vow: Not about betrayal but about forgiveness...

a few days back, i was home alone as usual. and there were too many things going around inside my head. I plug in my laptop speaker and choose random songs from youtube while doing my stitching.

saya tak beri perhatian pada lagu pon. just pasang lagu sbb xnk rumah senyap and taknak rasa sunyi. and then suddenly i had goose bumps. macam biasa saya t'pk ada hantu sbb orng kata bila ada benda x patut keliling kita, walaupon kita x sedar tapi kita akn meremang. dhla tgh sorng2, mmg perfect timing!!! sebab nak divert otak saya, pay attention kt lagu yg tgh play kt youtube. bila sampai part chorus sy meremang balik. and then saya sedar ini bukan hantu, saya meremang dgr lagu tu. broken vow-Harrison Craig (pemenang the voice 2)


saya stop lagu tu, play dari awal and pay attention to the music and the lyric and his amazing voice. i was alone and listen to this song again and again and again.

I don't know how to explain this...


I hope someone out there feels the same way i felt. and if you can put those feeling in words, please leave a comment.

Thursday, April 3, 2014

Vacation.... again

I’m not the kind of person who feels home whenever I’m home. I don’t know if that is weird but that’s what happened to me since I was 18. Whenever I come back home for semester leave or a few days holiday, I’ll be looking forward to go back to my hostel, or now, my room. Everybody else will be saying like how they don’t want to leave their hometown their house, their room and all. so far I have only met 1 person who feels the same way I do.

Moving on, my last vacation was like 2 years ago. May be there are some people who can live without vacation but for me at my kind of situation, i know i seriously need a break simply from everyone and everything. so, back then, I went on this cheap and affordable package at beach side for 3 days 2 nights. I don’t have soo much problems or stress or anything bothering my mind or my heart all the time back then. I just simply went with my friend.


So what happened was, I’m not the kind of person who do what my friend do and my friend is not the kind of person who do what I do. we do not enjoy the same thing. NOT AT ALL i do feel pity for her. i love to sit by the beach doing nothing just relaxing looking at people or the cloud or the sun or the night sky full of stars and anything similar, having my own thoughts.... obviously my friend not. so that was the last. we did plan a few places to visit next but then nothing happened. just nothing. at least not for me.

she do enjoy her life. she has friends who obviously enjoy the same thing. she does go on vacation a few times a year. hang out every now and then. well, as for me, it's just opposite. i had lots of friend back then, during UM life. but what happened after studies? everybody went back to their hometown and some get married. we do keep in touch but nothing really like hang out or something. Planning to meet or so called reunion is already a big deal and headache so please don't talk about planning a vacation with them. even if we do, some of us still haven't find a job, financially problems and we do'n own any vehicle, transportation prob.

Once my friend offered a 'pity invitation' to join her for a vacation. I just can't imagine sitting around like a weirdo in her group of friends. i hate feeling lost or not able to join the conversation. Macam orang bodoh. i can't get along with them at all. there might be some situation where they feel awkward, or just pity or being nice because obviously and simply we do not do the same things or enjoy the same things. who knows what they'll be thinking in their head or saying in their heart. they might even talk about me afterwards and laugh. how if i become the spoiler in their group. i just have heard enough and watched enough about them i just do not want to be in that kind of situation. that would be the worst!!!

Of course i can go vacation with my family. but what happened? you won't be the decision maker. just have to follow what have been decided and things like unplanned or unexpected won't happen. or maybe happened but everything taken care of. it's not the kind of thing i'm looking for in a vacation.

To me, when u go for a vacation, u hv to be one of the contributor and there should be some discussion involving you going on and things may go a little bit out of hand but that was the fun after all. like hanging around without age differences, talking whatever crap you want because someone called friend will respond to that other than laughing at you. doing things together and everybody enjoy the same thing. it's totally different between family and friend.

but hey, don't get me wrong. i do enjoy hanging out with my girls and my boys as much as i love hanging out with friends. It's just that in some situation some things won't be the same.

sooo... any travel agency wants to hire me??? i am very much open to the kind of job that have to send me out somewhere or anywhere almost all the time. I'M ON  :-)

Tuesday, April 1, 2014

Song of wisdom

satu2nya pelakon Tamil yg sgt terkenal dan dikenali oleh masyarakat Malaysia x kira bangsa dan agama ialah

Padayappa, Basha, Chandramukhi, Sivaji motte boss or nama sebenar dia RAJINIKANTH

selalunya dalam movie dia akn ada 1 lagu mcm memberi nasihat kepada orng ramai. tapi x byk yg prnh impress sy sbb tu semua mostly yg sy pernah dengar dlm dialog movie or pepatah tamil or pepatah english yg ditamilkan n perkara yg sama waktu dengannya.
2 minggu lepas saya tgh dengar THR Raaga, stesen radio tamil sambil membuat quotation. n then saya dengar satu lagu yg bermula dengan muzik diringin suara manusia mcm bersajak. first rangkap yg sy dgr sgt impress sy sampai sy berhenti kejap buat quotation and dengar apa yg cuba sampaikan dalam lagu tu. of course the first message was my fav sbb tu smthng yg 'different'. walaupon lagu tu banyak memuji watak dalam filem ni, tapi bagi sy highlight lagu ni adalah message yg disampaikan oleh suara rajinikanth.  i wanted to share the message. nama lagu tu "change is the only unchanging"(translated)

the first lyric yg buat saya berhenti sejenak and rasa WOW! saya xnk share apa yg sy ter'pk time sy dgr message dia. i want people to hv their own thoughts.

There are many ways to destroy an enemy. The first: FORGIVENESS

Change... Change is the only unchanging. All than changes, lives. All that doesn't, dies.

Be patient. You can even gather water in sieve, if you wait until it becomes ice

Money can help you rent happiness, but it cannot be bought.

The enmity of your friend is more dangerous, than the enmity of your enemies

Rise before the sun, and you can even conquer the sun

Does "YOU" refer to body? a life? or a name? None of these. It is ACTION

Fate's design is in god's hand. but it's conclusion is in your hands.

"GO" says the master. "COME, LETS GO" says the leader. are you a master or a leader?

If you take to running, sorrow will come chasing. Face it bravely, the chasing sorrow will run away.

Fate determines one's parents, but it is intelligence that determines one's friends.

Control your anger. One who rises with anger, falls down with failure.

My friend, everything is just for a while...

Kalau x faham baca sampai faham!!! Lepas kusyuk dengar lagu ni, saya sedar satu benda, message at ats semuanya disebut di al-quran. tapi penulis lyric tu seorng hindu. Kalau betul dia refer al-quran utk tulis lyric ni, sy just berdoa dia sempat dapat hidayah and peluk islam.  :-)


Kepada mereka yg nk dengar lagu berserta english subtitle, here you go.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JjXayaU-8po