Thursday, March 5, 2015

25 soon!

Saya jumpa 1 post pasal perkara yg orang akan sedar bila mereka dh berumur 25 dan single. memandangkan sy dh 25 dan single, sy pon layanlah post tu. i won't 100% agree with the post. kebanyakkan point dlm post tu sy rasa sy dh sedar sebelum berumur 25 lgi. memandangkan sejak kebelakangan ni sy xd idea nk cerita pape kt blog, sy just copy paste point dlm post tu and comment on the points.

Quality over quantity
Don’t get me wrong; there’s something quite satisfying about logging into Facebook to see that 100 people wished me happy birthday, but it was the few with pictures and stories that really warmed my heart.
I enjoyed all the messages very much, but I don’t need 100 people; I just need those special few.

TRUE. sy rasa sejak sy create fb(2011) sy dh hide birthday sy kt fb. saya xnk orng wish sy semata2 fb bgi reminder yg hri tu birthday sy. it doesn't mean anything to me. dan saya akn rasa kesian kepada mereka yg kira berapa ramai wall post kt profile mereka and buat status "thanks for ## of wishes" atau status yg sama waktu dgnnya


It doesn’t really matter how I celebrate
A few years ago, all I wanted to do for my birthday was get drunk with my friends.
That’s definitely still on the list, but my day in the sun with one of my closest friends and my family felt absolutely perfect this time.

dlu sy mmg nk orng akn bawa kek pukul 12 tgh malam buat surprise and celebrate dgn jemput ramai and potong kek bagai. tu sume zaman x matang. hahaha skrng klu bw kek pukul 12 utk celebrate birthday, sy rasa boring. xkanlaaa orng xleh pk smthng different kan? takkan bertahun2 and berabad2 nk buat benda yg sama jee. sy lebih appreciate bila buat something yg creates memory, everybody laugh and happy.


I’m so old
I woke up on my birthday and thought, “Holy crap, how am I already 25?” I remember life without a cell phone and having to do research in encyclopedias. A quarter of a century is a really long freaking time!
I’m so young
But then, I thought, “Wow, it’s already been 25 years, but I have so many more!” It was a pretty liberating feeling to know that I’ve experienced a pretty good portion of life, but I really have so much more to go.

Ni saya pernah rasa masa celebrate birthday sy yg maybe ke-21 or ke-22. sy ada habit off nfon sblm pukul 12 mlm n tido masa birthday sy. bila sy bgn tido, sy rasa OH MY GOD...! today is my birthday. mana arah tuju life sy? klu sy mati skrng sy masuk syurga or neraka? saya berguna x kt dunia ni? and etc. but then sy ngantuk sgt so sy sambung tido.


Being in a relationship actually appeals to me now
It really never did before because it felt like I had so many other things to do. I still have a lot to do, but my priorities have changed.
I’m still up for adventures, but I’d kind of like to have them with another person (which is a really weird thing for me to admit).

this happened to me on new year eve last year. i was home alone at my rental house. sy tgh sidai kain tgh malam time dgr bunyi mercun. sy tau dh masuk tahun 2014. i never feel lonely even if i'm alone.
but that year was different. i start to think y do i prefer to be alone when i can choose to be loved?


Time feels more important
Maybe this makes me an assh*le, but I no longer feel obligated to hang out with some people just because they asked.
Time feels a little more important now and my life seems a little more prioritized. I know to whom I want to give my time and they are the ones who get it.

SO TRUE. a few years ago, i stop giving damn bout certain people anymore. i am no more that sweet girl that pleased everyone. come on..! i don't have to wake up every morning to please anyone. u don't like me? cool. i don't care.


My decisions hold a different weight
There are things I definitely won’t be proud of doing at 25. I now have to ask myself, “Will I want to say I did this at 25?” If the answer is no, don’t do it.

I just start to think if i do something, will my parents be pleased with it? will Allah be pleased with it?


Life feels just a teeny bit clearer
I’ve been going through a bit of a quarter-life crisis lately, but on my birthday, I felt this weird sense of calm wash over me.
It suddenly became a little clearer to me that I don’t need to solve all my problems at once, and everything really will be okay.

In this case, i hv a friend that told me back than that everything will be fine in my life. Just for now i have to stop being insecure bout certain things. that was true.

Friday, February 20, 2015

My stalking List

kalau korng prasan, sebelah kanan blog ni ada 'My Stalking List'. sebenarnya tu semua link ke blog kawan2 saya. masa sy mula2 create blog, sy prasan ramai yg suka letak link blog lain kt tepi blog mereka. sampai skrng sy xtau apa motif dia sebenarnya. dah ramai yang buat mcm tu. saya pon ikutlah kan.


Yang jadi kesiannya apabila xd sorng pon dari stalking list sy yg aktif.

Iris Kembali
Minah ni coursemate sy. saya dengar cerita dari orng, dia buat salah sebab tu dia dh menghilangkan diri. mungkin sbb tu dia dh delete fb dia n tukar nom semua. maybe blog dia aktif lagi cuma sy xleh buka.

Ceritera aku dan kami
ni blog kawan matriks sy dgn 2 orng lgi coursemate dia. time diorng kt University lgi adalah pape update. bila dh graduate(3 tahun lps) dh malas nk update la tu.

Suria De Salvatore
Ni kawan matriks sy. saya xd contact dgn dia. tapi sy suka baca blog dia. ntah knp dia dh stop berblog.

Perjalanan kisah hidupku
Ni blog kawan matriks sy. saya x rasa dia stop berblog. cuma slama 2 tahun ni dia mencari ilham untuk berblog,

u dono?i oso dono
ni kawan UM sy. dh nk jadi bini orng. dia ni kes terlupa dia ada blog.

tiehaismail
Ni kawan UM jugak. saya xdlah rapat dgn dia tapi slalu gak bertegur. saya xleh buka blog dia sbb sy xd invitation katanya. xtaulah dia berblog lgi ke x

By yana alii
Ni chipsmore. kejap ada kejap xd. tapi xd dia kali ni mcm lama sgt. xtaulah lps ni akn ada balik ke x. suka bc blog dia dgn loghat utara dia. baca ayat dia pon dh boleh terbayang gaya dia.

little furry bag
Ni kawan UM sy. menghilangkan diri gak. tapi sy tau dia slalu stalk blog sy. cuma sy x faham apa yg berlaku dgn blog dia. xtau knp tetiba jadi blog yg byk bgi link movie.

L.I.F.E. I.S. T.O.O. S.H.O.R.T S.O B.E S.M.A.R.T
Ni kawan UM sy.  burung hantu. ni mungkin kes cari ilham. ataupon terlupa yg dia ada blog.


Nampaknya sy terpaksa tukar link kt my stalking list.

Monday, January 26, 2015

Kedai runcit vs supermarket

Semestinya ramai yg prefer pergi supermarket. Harga situ lebih murah berbanding beli kt kedai runcit. Diorng ada membership kad lagi and dapat kumpul point bagi setiap pembelian and redeem bila points dh byk. Diorng ada membership day and bagi discount up to 70%. Lagipon supermarket mcm one stop center. Boleh beli macam2 skaligus.

Saya selalunya memilih untuk pergi ke kedai runcit. Saya tau harga dia mahal sikit. Xdlah membership kad atau diskaun bagai. And barang pon limited. Skali pergi xleh beli semua yg kita nak.

Ayah sy pemilik kedai runcit. Ayah saya besarkan saya dan adik beradik sy dengan duit kedai runcit tu. Pelajaran kitorng dan duit perbelanjaan even pakaian dan makanan kitorng semua dari duit kedai runcit. Saya memilih kedai runcit sebab mungkin pemilik kedai tu pon ada anak untuk disekolahkan, dibiayai pelajaran dan untuk diberi makan dan pakaian dan disediakan tempat tinggal macam ayah saya. Mungkin pekerja kat kedai runcit tu mengharapkan duit gaji dari hasil dari jualan kt kedai runcit untuk dikirimkan kepada keuarga dia, untuk bagi makan keluarga dia, sama mcm pekerja kedai ayah saya. Mungkin pembelian saya dari kedai runcit tu membantu lebih dari 1 keluarga untuk survive.

Saya tau pemilik supermarket tu dh cukup kaya. Saya x rasa kehilangan sorng pelanggan mcm saya effect perniagaan dia. Lagipon, ada je brng yg sy kene pergi beli kat supermarket sbb xd kt kedai runcit.

Monday, January 12, 2015

Formspring saya wujud lagi.....

korang perasan x kt tepi blog ni ada satu column dgn header "formspring" pas2 ada benda tertulis "ask me anything!" kt ruangan tu pas2 bawah tu ada button "ask"

yg tu adalah link laman web formspring. orang boleh tanya kt saya pape soalan kt situ and tekan button ask. saya akan dapat soalan tu tapi saya xkan tahu  sape yang tanya. saya just akn jawab and publish kt profile formspring saya. orang yg nk tahu jawapan saya kene lawat profile saya. mcm mana nk lawat profile saya??? tekan kt nama saya "sitilavender" kt dalam column formspring. nanti bukalah satu link kat tab baru and tulah profile saya.

saya biasanya akn jawab sepatah dua je as jawapan. hari ni sy terfikir nak bgi explanation utk jawapan saya tu.


Would you rather be forgotten or hatefully remembered?

sitilavender: forgotten. we can make a new memory

sy slalu terfikir mcm mana klu tetiba something berlaku menyebabkan saya hilang ingatan? at least saya boleh lupakan semua yang buruk. I wish i can magically forgot many things because sometimes, some things are too much to bear. tapi soalan yg orng ni tanya lain sikit. so saya memilih untuk dilupakan. We can always make new memories. A better one I mean.

Do you remember that time 5 years ago when you were extremely upset? Does it really matter now?

sitilavender: not anymore. But that is not something that i will forget

saya tau sape yang tanya soalan ni. bukan semua orang tahu apa yg berlaku 5 tahun lepas(sekarang dh 6 tahun). it was really ugly and hard on me. i learn some things in a very hard ways. effect perkara tu tiga tahun kot. but it really doesn't matter now. i am over those issues. but definitely i won't forget it. Lesson learnt!



If you could go anywhere, where would you go?

Sitilavender: Thats a difficult question because i have a long list

I want to go everywhere. Saya memang minat travelling. Saya nk habiskan Malaysia dulu sebelum start travel ke Negara luar. Dan saya xnk pergi ke tempat yang sama berkali2.


And kt bawah ni soal jawab fav saya. Ni semua berlaku beberapa tahun lepas.

What is your favorite type of candy?
Sitilavender:
Candy Crush!!! send me life pls.
*blink*blink*blink*

saya rasa saya sangat loser ? awak rasa ?
Sitilavender:
saya rsa ngantuk. zzzz....!


Can you keep a secret?
sitilavender:
it depends on the secret...

siti papa
sitilavender:
hoi!!!

boo chak!!
Sitilavender:
?????????

Ini pulak mereka yang obses dengan blog saya zaman saya kt UM dulu

NOTHING ABOUT ME :(
Sitilavender:
WHO R U?

bila nak update sayang :)
sitilavender:
sabarla syng. xd crita nk tulis kt blog lgi.....