Wednesday, February 27, 2013

Dear boyfriend/girlfriend.

Dear boyfriend,

thanks for never letting me go and take me to those beautiful places that i have never seen before. i gave you this chance and you spent your money for me. you know bout me more than you know bout yourself and you be everything that i want. you listen to what i like and i don't, you never want to fight with me. you make me shine. i know you never want to leave me and treat me right.

wait.... you never exist!!

*ayat2 diatas diolah dari lagu boyfriend-justin bieber. sekian terima kasih...



Dear Girlfriend,

Make sure kita keep in touch even dh jdi isteri orng, ibu kpd 16 orng and even dh mengembara ke negara lain.

Tuesday, February 26, 2013

Dear best friend

bagi saya, ada byk beza antara friend and best friend. besrfriend adalah someone yg sy percaya. n stakat ni sorng je.

so, dear best friend,

kita patut memperbaharui wasiat kita sbb wasiat terakhir yg kita buat lbh krng 5 thn lps. terlalu byk benda tak matang yg sy nk buang dri wsiat tu.

Things between us is so serious that we make fun of it, please jangan berubah and jgn bgi sy pon berubah.

Friday, February 22, 2013

Dear Friends

Dear friends,

sy rsa kumpulan kawan2 sy sgt unik. mesti ada sorng wakil dri segala macam jenis masalah sosial. yg tgh sesat, yg di jalan lurus, yg tgh menghala ke jalan sesat, yg tengah menghala ke jalan lurus and yg berada di tengah2 jalan sesat and jalan lurus.

saya berkawan dengan korang just sebab satu perkara je, you guys do not mess with my life. saya x ambik kisah pasal past korng. sume orng ada past, sume orng ada dark side and dark secrets. and to me, my friends are the best.

kebanyakan masa sy tgh susah, korng yg slalu menghiburkan hati sy. mmg kebanyakannya sy x prnh bgtau sape pon yg sy tgh susah, tpi bila sy rsa susah, sy just akn berjalan ke bilik korng lepak kat fac tak pon cafe kolej. mesti sy akn lupakan benda2 yg menyakitkan hati. slalu ikut je blkng sy time sy terpaksa merayau ke sana sini. kdng2 volunteer nk buatkan keje saya, tolong saya. sabar je bila sy tgh menyusahkan korng.

saya teringin nk menghabiskan sisa2 hidup membujang ni dgn kawan2 sy sahaja (ayat berbunyi pelik???). asal sabtu ahad merayau je mana2 and lepak. dinner stiap malam. tapi nk buat mcm mna, sy ni plak byk masalah dan halangannya.

Papepon, thanks for the past and good luck for the future.

Thursday, February 21, 2013

Dear Siblings

Dear siblings,

kecik2 dlu slalu terpk kenapalah mak lahirkan korng ke dunia ni. menyusahkan sy betul. menyampah. mesti semua orang pernah fikir benda ni jugak. tapi bagi saya, semakin lama, semuanya mula berubah sedikit demi sedikit. kita x mcm orng lain, menunjuk2 kearaban kt luar dpn orang, tangkap gamba mcm kembar siam, tulis status or post mcm2 kt fb mcm orng x cukup matang. sume benda antara kita selalunya stay antara kita je. x prnh nk kisah apa orng kata.

selalunya, bila saya nk buat something and saya mula rasa yg sy akn kantoi dgn parents, sya akn share benda tu dgn adik beradik supaya bila dh kantoi, boleh saling salahkan antara satu sama lain n sama2 kene marah. hehe...

ada orng yg rapat time muda2 tapi bila dh tua mula nk sibuk bergadoh n memburukkan satu sama lain. saya harap kita x mcm tu. ada plak x pernah nk menghargai adik beradik and bersikap annoying. saya harap kita akn stay mcm ni...

Tuesday, February 19, 2013

Dear Parents

Dear Parents

i'm proud of you guys. kerana bsrkan ank2 dgn sgt perfect. i'm proud of all my siblings and myself. sy slalu dgr crita orng yg kene blasah dgn parents, kene paksa dgn parents, ataupon xd life sbb ikut apa yg parents nk je. kami adik beradik semestinya antara yg bertuah. we choose our own path, and you were there, watching our back.

saya rsa saya yg plng susah dibesarkan antara adik beradik saya. suka memberontak, kecik2 lagi dh brani buat mcm2, ikut kepala sendiri. i'm sorry for that. and thank you for that pet name. nmpk gaya mcm mmg akn lekat nama tu sampai bila2. but i love it.

not everything was easy for me as you came from different 'world' but raise me at another 'world'. I stucked in between. like how you guys never understand how sorry i was for my self all the time. well, that explains all the pemberontakan i did.

i never know how hard it is to watch our baby grow and have to let them go. i don't have a baby yet. but you never really realized that i'm growing. may be thats because of my pet name, which makes you think that i'm still a baby. still holding my hands for every step i make. but, i really hope that you guys will let me to fall and rise and walk on my own. i hope to make you understand that...

Dear parents, i'm grown up now, it's time....

Monday, February 18, 2013

Original

i'm not original. and i'm not creative.

Dear, ______ 15 Day Challenge

  1. Dear Parents
  2. Dear siblings
  3. Dear friends
  4. Dear best friend
  5. Dear boyfriend/girlfriend
  6. Dear old me
  7. Dear school
  8. Dear 2013
  9. Dear future
  10. Dear Relations
  11. Dear LRT users
saya nmpk benda ni kt tumblr. list ni untuk kita tulis notes utk diorng2 dlm list tu. i think thats a good idea. tpi nk tulis kene byk benda pk. sy tau ramai yg bc blog saya, sy xleh terlalu personal. n sy tau sy akn keluarkan beberapa statement jujur yg menyebabkan mereka yg xleh trima kejujuran tu rsa sakit hati. lps sminggu dua sy pk, at last, sy pk nk go on je dgn benda ni. sy edit sikit list tu, menyesuaikan dgn sy. tpi sy still xkan update stiap hari sbb tahap kemalasan sy dh meningkat. but at least, time ada mood nk update, xdla sy nk pening2 pk psl topik. sbb topik dh dpn mata.

see you guys

Thursday, February 14, 2013

long post

sy tgh tension so sy nk melalut panjang sampai sy ngantuk n pgi tido. ada orng masalah kt office, ada orng kt fmly, ada orng antara fmly, ada orng personal. ntahla utk sy sumenya messed up.

beberapa minggu lps, abng2 sy bw sy pgi makan burger apa ntah nama dia, kat ampang. nama dia ada 'german'. mereka kata lapar, sy igtkan lapar biasa2, xtau la plak diorng lapar mcm gajah. habs byk benda diorng order. slalnya dlm menu book or iklan sume nmpk besar tpi real nmpk kecik. tpi time ni terbalik. dlm menu book nmpk kecik, punyalah syok diorng order, bila dh sampai brula tau besarnya menu yg diorder.


yg ni abng sy order. tinggi dia sejengkal tangan gergasi abng sy. maybe tinggi lbh sikit kot. ni benda pertama yg sampai ke meja kami n sy terdiam. mcm biasa, sy yg merasmikan majlis melahap malam ni. sedap!


ni abng sy lgi sorng order. untuk kami bertiga kongsi n makan. even fries dia sebesar jaris manis sy. 


ni abng sy lgi sorng tu order utk diri dia. xtaula apa benda merepek kt ts tu. bgi sy x sedap. hotdog n roti dia besar and sedap. 


ni yg sy order. ada 6 layer semuanya. panjang dia lbh krng 1 kaki kot. ntah manaah diorng cri pinggan tu.

masa mula tu kononnya nk makan pakai pisau n garpu n sudu nk maintain image and reputation konon. at last, sume senteng lengan baju n makan cara orng malaysia. pinggan n makanan sume dimakan secara rotation. sume orng makan sume makanan. sebab sistem rotation nilah sy suka kluar makan dgn abng2 sy. and mereka selalu try something new utk makan. xdla always the same thing.


saya pernah x cawan susu moo sy yg comel. hehehe. sy nk tunjuk gak.

untuk mereka yg x prasan, cawan ni bertemakan lembu. sebab tulah sy guna untuk minum susu je.


saya dh mula kerja and office saya di tingkat 10. cantikla jugak view dia. tpi malangnya sy x dpt tempat tepi tingkap. n tempat duduk plak hadap bilik bos. tpi sy suka sgt view dri tandas. rsa mcm nk angkut meja komputer sume masuk tandas pon ada.

itu dia KL tower. n KLCC di belakangnya ya.saya sempat tangkap 1 gamba je sbb tadas slalu ada orng masuk n suka termenung kt sana. malu nk tangkap gamba. sy slalu dgr psl jalan blkng bangunan office sy so skali tu sy terpk nk try kluar jalan tu. diorng kata kalau lalu sana dekat dgn menara maybank n menara olypia kot nama dia.

so pada ptng yg mendung itu pon sy kluar tanpa rasa takut yg akn sesat.

saya jumpa skolah ni di blkng office saya. oh my! cantiknya sekolah ni sy suka gila bangunan tu n sy just nmpk bangunan tu je, xd bangunan lain. maybe ada kt blkng tpi sy x nmpk.n skolah ni famous gak la. st john kot nama dia, dh x igt. jalan sana mcm bahaya sbb sunyi, nasib time sy jalan tu bdk2 skolah balik dri latihan or sukan.

beberapa hari lps dpt emergency call dri kawan sy, terpaksa sy patah balik pgi KLCC, walaupon dh sparuh jalan nk sampai rumah. nk buat mcm mna, dh kawan. kami jalan2 kt taman belakang KLCC tu sambil mendengar luahan hati dia n dia dgr cerita tension sy.


sy suka cerita kat dia sbb dia bkn jns yg bw cerita n plng2 pon bercerita kat wen. n lgi 1 dia akn bgtau apa yg dia rasa on the spot, mcm klu dia rsa sy gila ke, buat keputusan bodoh ke, dia akn bgtau dpn2. xdnya nk bercerita kt blkng.

kebetulan masa sy pgi ada main pancut2 air ni. punyalah bertahun ddk KL bdk ni xtau pon ada taman n kolam kt blkng KLCC tu. seronok tgk dia buat muka jakun. n tny jalan tu pgi mana, jln ni pgi mana. sempat ngorat beberapa orng yg lalu. malu sy dibuatnya.


saya buat lawatan ke harley davidson.


workshop mereka. mereka tgh test sound kt motor tu, diorng pasang lagu chammak challo. sy just bayangkan diorng sume tgh menari2 sambil buat sound test tu. best gila sound dia.


ni ruang tangga dia. penuh dgn gelas2 harley n gamba2 harley.


ni kt area tangga dia, dinding kosong tu dipenuhkan dengan gamba n disusun dgn kemas besar kt ats and yg kecik kt bawh. saya rsa sangat kreatif buat mcm tu. disusun dgn cantik n nampak kemas. 


ni kedai dia jual baju kasut n mcm2 brng harley. harga dia mmg harga kambing harga lembu laa. tpi cantik. dh kaya nanti blh bli.

Wednesday, February 13, 2013

Valentine

wen tulis something psl sy...

asked Zura once to be my Valentine. I bought her a bouquet of flowers and went to someone’s room. She said yes but it didn’t count. Zura is a girl. I asked my exes for years, all of them defied the idea of Valentine, saying it’s not part of the religion yada yada yada. All of the sudden they’re religious regarding this matter and this matter only. Hypocrites.

dulu sy mmg sambut valentine, tpi bkn dgn kekasih. sy tak pernah ada kekasih. saya sambut dgn kawan saya. masa kat sekolah menengah, saya dapat hadiah valentine dri best friend saya, G. kami bertukar hadiah. lps msk matrix sy dh xd sape utk sambut pape. masuk UM, tiba2 satu hari jumpa wen kt koridor kolej n dia jerit will you be my valentine. sy terus ckp yes n bw bunga tu masuk bilik. time tu sy pk gila betul bdk ni. ramai yg pandang, mesti pk kami ni lesbian ke apa ke. malu tu mmg ada. tpi bila pk skrg mmg tersenyum sorng2.

Zura likes me because I am honest with her. She’s the total opposite of me. I tell her stuffs, she teaches me Tamil, I bring her to places she’s never been before, she accompanies me for lunches. She likes me because I am honest, which got me thinking, I don’t need to lie or to hide anything.

yg tu mmg betul. zmn skrng ni, orng ckp kt dpn kita lain kt blkng kita lain. wen ni lain sikit. dia akn bgtau dpn2 apa yg dia rsa n sy xkan marah even dia ckp smthng psl sy yg sy xnk dgr. mgkn ramai yg xleh trima perkara tu sbb tu diorng x suka wen. klu jalan dgn wen ni agak memalukan. dia akn cakap or buat sume perkara random n orng akn pandang kita or gelak. n sy still x faham mcm mna saya blh bertahan dgn dia.

hri ni mmg byk teringat kat dia. even masa saya pergi jumpa wani pon kami sembang pasal dia. lain kali klu turun KL bgtau awal2 i miss our sushi time. n skill chopstick sy dh semakin teruk. kene asah balik. n ada byk gosip psl jenny. just let me know klu awak turun KL. n klu sy berjaya berjuang n ddk rumah sewa, ddk tempat sendiri, kita buat sleepover. hehehe