dia tu perempuan

time kluar blik kwn sy, terserempak dgn sorng bdk cina ni. t'senyum sy nmpk dia kt blok prmpn. t'igt pda satu insiden ni psl dia....

time tu tgh buat satu projek kolej. musim tgh tension... sy n seorng bdk laki ni (satu2nya kwn laki melayu sepanjang sy ddk kt UM) tgh ddk kt dwn, tunggu sorng ni yg nk jumpa kami psl projek tu. time tu kami penolong pengarah. dh pukul 12 lbh. dia dh boring tunggu, pas2 dia kluarkan assignment dia tu. tgk assignment dia bru sy tau dia bdk sains bio. sblm ni x prnh t'pk nk tny.

selang 2 meja dri kami ni, adalah satu geng junior cina. Diorng mcm tgh berlatih utk drama or debat. kt geng tu adalah sorng ni yg plng kecoh. t'lompat sana, t'lompat sini. dia nmpk plik. lama sy pandang dia. kwn kt sblh sy ni tny "knp?' dia dh risau mnalah tau sy ternmpk hantu ke apa ke. sy tunjukkan bdk cina tu n kata kt dia "sy tgh pk dia tu laki ke prmpn". kwn tu pun pandang blkng. dia pandang bdk tu beberapa saat je n trus dia kata "dia tu prmpn" n smbng buat keje. sy plik n curious. sy dh buka mulut nk tny mcm mna dia tau. tpi time pandang dia nk tny tu sy nmpk dia t'senyum sorng2. trus x jadi nk tny. ntah knp tiba2 rasa malu sgt. trus bgn n kluar dri tempat tu.

kt luar sy t'pk, dh la dia laki, bdk bio plak tu. ntah apa benda yg tgh dia t'pk....

berdiam diri

ada yg senyum, ada yg nangis, ada yg tension, ada yg stress, ada yg termenung, ada yg muram. bila diorng sume b'paling pda sy, sy hanya mampu berdiam dri...  biarkan diorng buat andaian sendiri... ada yg pandang sy. lama sgt pandang sy. sy tau ada mata memandang sy. tpi sy memilih utk buat x tau. sy memilih utk x pandang blk. sy xnk ada yg bc apa yg ada dlm fikiran sy...

sy n sorng ni saling bertengking hri ni. perkataan last sy tengking "awk prnh nmpk ke perasan dlm hati sy kt muka sy" n dia tengking blk "tak". trs kami sume gelak. yg tgh dgr skali sume gelak... klu tengking mesti tandanya tgh gado ke? bru hri ni sy tau tengking bkn utk bergado. dia ada positive side dia...

time2 mcm ni, tiba2 ada orng miss call. tgk spe, t'tera nama 'manja'. ikin, roommate matrix sy, awk buat sy senyum hri ni... sorry x dpt respon sbb xd kdt... sy x perlukan orng bergayut or msg lama2 dgn sy. sy jns yg x suka benda2 tu. just a miss call, lama sy tersenyum. mcm2 sy t'igt. ikin, awk buat sy senyum hri ni. thanks a lot...

online n offline...

sy plik dgn sorng ni... dh lama sy notice. ble sy online, dia akn offline. klu sy offline, dia akn online. sy x kacau dia pun. hbs knp x delete je sy dri friend list dia? jgn risau, sy ni jns yg realistic. sy xkan sakit hati or b'sdih klu awk delete sy, sbb sy xnk kacau hdp spe2 dgn kehadiran sy... i always push people out of my life coz those who love me, they won't leave.. so now, sy dh create satu group kt fb, n sy mskkan awk dlm group tu n dlm chat box, sy set group tu offline slalu. maksudnya awk takkan nmpk sy online dh lps ni. awk bebas dri gangguan paparan nama sy d fb awk... klu awk dh prasan benda tu, n tiba2 awk t'pk ade benda nk chat dgn sy, silalah msg, sy akn online kan group. kita blh settlekan masalah klu ada... tpi sy rekomenkan awk delete sy trus. sama ada dr fb or dri mna2 lgi....

nangis...

yang sedang tenggelam itu adalah amoi. hahahaha

reject, gamba terlalu kelakar....

wow! tapi gamba terlalu ayu. alahai, walaupun xd hati, reject!!!

hah! ini bru emo skit. ok ok start!!! camera!!! action!!!!


HUA...!!!! nisa xnk kawan dgn sy. gara2 gamba cute dia yg sy n amoi upload kt fb. pas2 amoi tag rmai. sampai nisa deactivate fb dh. huhuhuhuhuhu

cut!!!! clap! clap! clap!

dh pukul 4 ni. dh2, jom kita sume msk tido. good night....

*nk smbng pujuk nisa esk....

overnight!!!???

First of all, klu ada orng terasa, ops...! sy x tujukan post ni kt spe2

gila apa? okay, mayb bukan keje gila utk sesetengah orng. tpi utk sy, yes!!!

"ala, apa salahnya, bkn buat jahat pun, kita just hang around je, bukan msk disco, bkn buat benda x patut, bukan mcm tu pun, bkn mcm ni pun."

walaupun bkn mcm mna pun, apa jua alsn, sy ttp xkan overnight kt mna2. pengemis pun, bila dh mlm, dia ada tempat nk blk. Jgn ajk sy buat benda yg sy x suka.Klu nk tau sgt apa yg sy akn buat, try la klu brani.

Sy mmg suka kluar rounding mlm2. Tpi bukan kluar pgi tempat yg ‘hot’ n sampai overnight. Tempat yg blh jln2. Ada ramai n tempat yg SENONOH. Mcm keliling kk9 dgn wen mlm2. Seronok! Cme kk9 kecik, so kami akn lepak kt pintu msk kk9, tgk bangunan2 yg nmpk dri c2 n kutuk kreta yg lalu.

Xpun kluar dgn sedara2 sy. Mmg laki n prmpn remaja je yg kluar sume. Klu kluar dgn diorng mmg lmbt gila blk. Tpi last2 kami blk umah kami gak. Xpun sume skali bersepah tido kt umah wangsa maju. X prnh overnight.

Mgkn cra korng d’bsrkan lain. sy, bila dh maghrib, kluar umah pun pgi umah sebelah je. X pun tuisyen. X lebih dri tu. Tu pun, atta yg anta. Sy mmg nk atta sy je yg anta. X ske ikut orng lain. kluar dgn kwn2 mmg jarang. Paling2 pun pgi pasar pagi hri sabtu. X pun pegi date tepi sungai bernam dgn G...

first day xam

sy x hbs bc syllabus, walaupun xam pukul 3 ptng, pgi pukul 9 dh terpacak kt fac, try hbskan syllabus. msk je, tgh sume cri tempat nk ddk blkng2, sy mls nk jln jauh, ddk je dpn yg menhadap bdk fac lain tu. nmpk lecture sy yg lbh nervous b'banding student dia tu. dpn sy sebaris meja kosong, sblh kiri dia sume student part time yg dh tua2 sume. ala.... x best nye, pandang kanan plak. umh!!! wah! jejaka sume. oren ada, biru ada, hijau ada. hahaha time nk buat xm pun sempat lgi utk benda2 mcm ni.

sblm mula xam pun dh nmpk bdk2 prmpn fac dpn dh mula ngorat lecture sy yg muka dia ala2 foreigner tu. semoga berjaya ye, dia bujang lgi... cuma satuvla, dia takut dgn students. klu ckp menggeletar tgn dia. lecture yg jga student fac dpn sy tu baik sgt2. dia g tgk jwpn yg student dia tgh tulis n btlkan jwpn diorng. klu ada yg tny, dia ajar. slamba je dia tu. wow! tu hah lecture sy tu. hm...

sy lbh suka cpt siapkan xam sy sbb suka tgk ragam orng time xam. tpi paper ni nk siapkan awal mmg 'adoi' la. time tgh pk pandang kanan tu(kiri dh x pandang dh. hehehe), yg oren tu sandar kt krusi pas2 nmpk brown yg ddk blkng dia. ouw!!!! gugur hbs ilmu di dada. aidoi, cabaran2. kutip blk ilmu yg gugur tdi. at last, berjaya jugak siapkan 15 mnt sblm masa berakhir,

time ni, lec sy dh mundar mandir dh. x senang ddk tgk students dia tgh menulis bagai nk berapi hujung pen tu. tgk dia lama2, tiba2 sy rsa kesian kt dia. slama ni x prnh sy ske kt dia walapun ramai girls suka kt dia. tutor dia slalu sy x buat. dia ajar kt dpn, sy main2 dgn erin si makcik kt blkng. klu kami jln berselisih, dia sy senyum, sy jeling dia blk. he tried his best to be a good lecturer. xpla encik triple s, kita akn jumpa lgi sem dpn utk treasury mnagement. sy try jdi student yg baik plak lps ni.dgn syarat, improve urself a little bit more pls...

*sy bc benda ni berkali2 n rsa plik. still post gak!

silence

copy paste dri chatting d fb


siti lavender:
u r the one who send me friend request

u r the one who started chatting with

now, u r the one who wanted to call me

what make u to suddenly contact me

coz u never even smiled at me b4

the person:

i liked ur silence a lot, lot n lot

according to me,
ur silence is powerful than 1000 words
my kind request

ur silence can speak more than word

so at any cause

dont leave it


thanks for appreciating me as myself...

what hurts the most....

I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house

That don't bother me

I can take a few tears now and then and just let them out

I'm not afraid to cry every once in a while

Even though going on with you gone still upsets me

There are days every now and again I pretend I'm ok

But that's not what gets me

What hurts the most

Was being so close

And having so much to say

And watching you walk away

And never knowing

What could have been

And not seeing that loving you

Is what I was tryin' to do

It's hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere I go

But I'm doin' It

It's hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I'm alone

Still Harder

Getting up, getting dressed, livin' with this regret

But I know if I could do it over

I would trade give away all the words that I saved in my heart

That I left unspoken

What hurts the most

Is being so close

And having so much to say

And watching you walk away

And never knowing

What could have been

And not seeing that loving you

Is what I was trying to do

Not seeing that loving you

That's what I was trying to do

Ooohhh....

mood:

mood sy sgt x elok. rsa mcm nk menjerit2. rsa mcm nk nangis2. rasa mcm nk senyum sampai nmpk sume gigi n sakit pipi. sy prlukan barney, the purple dinosaur(kpd sape2 yg x knl barney, sila rujuk gambar di bawah.... sy nk pluk barney lma2, tenangkan rsa2 sy mcm kt ats. wen, my corrupted friend, yg neutralkan feeling sy dgn meng'corrupt' mind sy xd hri ni... so, sy kluar dgn kwn2 bisnes sy...

byk nk cite tdi, ntahla... tgkla, klu ada pape idea dlm pukul 3 ke 4 ke...

sy xkan tls yg sy tipu awk kt blog klu sy xnk awk tau... sbb sy tau awk bc blog sy. we both need time. we need to discuss. pls, tunggu sampai hbs xam... nanti kita blh gado sampai 1 dunia dgr...

*kpd sesiapa yg x berkaitan, sy still single mingle lgi n ni bkn ksh cinta or what!

wen blikan sy snickers hri ni!!! wen srh sy p blaja time kami tgh jln blk kolej. dia kata, dia tak nk sy tuduh dia klu sy gagal nanti sbb dia ajk sy kluar n sy x study. sy jwb, klu sy study n still gagal, sy nk orng utk dituduh. hehehe wen!!! kesan chocolate awk, sy jdi xcited lps hbs mkn sampai xd mood utk study. still sy blh salahkan awk. yeay!!!


akhirnya, sy dh susun jadual utk sem dpn. tpi tarikh2 xam dia mcm gila lah..back-to-back... dh rasa stress dh skrng. mcm mnalah sy nk jga markah sume. skrng pun sy dh ada byk projek utk sem dpn... Ya Allah, TOLONG!!!!!

Tipu...

Mood: emo tahap maksimum. So spe2 yg nk bc entry kali ni, diminta bertukar ke mode emo...

Ade orng buat satu statement. Biasanya, bila orng bgi statement mcm tu, sy xkan komen pape. Sy just akn senyum or memilih utk berdiam dri. Tpi kali ni lain yg berlaku. Sy menjawab statement tu. Ye, sy m’jwb dgn penipuan. Walaupun just 1 ayt, sy tau sy sgt x patut ckp mcm tu, sbb effect dia bsr. Walaupun time m’jwb tu, hati sy dh kata jgn, otak sy dh srh berhenti, sy still memilih utk menipu. N skrng sy menyesal. Knp sy buat mcm tu? Knp sy x bgtau dia hal sbnr? Mgkn sy tkut? Or sy xnk dia rasa benda sama yg sy prnh rsa yg sgt menyakitkan hati? tpi sy x rasa dia n sy sama. Sy x rasa hati n pkran dia akn t'ganggu mcm sy. Tpi mcm mna kalau apa yg sy rasa tu slh?

Skrng sy dh x tenang. Dh larut mlm, still x tido. Nk blaja utk xam x blh, rsa terganggu... x ngantuk, so tdi termenung kt tingkap tepi koridor aras sy, walaupun orng kta seram kt c2. Rasa dh lama sgt kt c2, msk bilik... Time tgh ddk kt gelap (roommate sy dh tido so sy ttp sume lampu) Sy t’pk utk buka 1 folder kt laptop sy. Folder yg sy nyorokan dlm laptop sy, pnuh dgn byk sgt kenangan manis sampai sy x prnh brani buka folder tu, skrng sy buka, sy tgk sume gamba n video. Tersenyum sorng2... knp sy x prnh prasan byk benda? Byk sgt tindakan bodoh sy. Pntngkan dri..!

Skrng, sy dh xd perasaan dh. Mgkn sbb sy dh tau kebenaran. Mmg awk x prnh bgtau, tpi sy tau... no turning point.... kali ni sy buat kptsn yg berbeza, b'beza dri kptsn sy sblm ni. sy m'milih utk jga hati sy dgn sakitkan hati awk. it's not easy for me...

p/s: sy bknla lnsng x menipu... sy blh dikategorikan pandai menipu sbb ramai yg akn percy penipuan sy... Cuma, sy xkan tipu dlm hal yg serius, lbih2 lgi mengenai perhubungan

good luck...

wireless kk9 dh mula buat hal... skrng ni, klu dpt buka internet, sama feeling mcm dpt imbang kat kunci kira-kira time xam... wah!!! hehehe

sy mengucapkan good luck kepada sume warga UM n bdk2 SPM yg bakal menghadapi xam.. sama2lah kita berjuang....

tlng jgn ade spe2 buat hal time mcm ni, projek tu ada masalah la, keje ni xleh settle lah. segala jns perkara yg blh m'ganggu pelajaran sy tdk akn dilyn...  papepun, lps 8 dec sbb sy available sepanjang cuti sem d UM...

hey you...

To the person who wrote bout me n iur blog... i’m not going to mention ur name, don’t want others to read it... Thanks for writing bout me.... several thing to say...

love my accent??? first time ade orng ckp mcm tu... the friend i used to love the most always ask me to improve my BM. my accent is cute? thanks for the compliment. Sy dh xd niat nk improve BM sy lps ni. hehehe

may b for u, life is dull without any corruption. Well, for me, life is dull without a corrupted friend.. hahaha... awk still nombor satu dlm list ‘my corrupted friend’. Mcm mnala sy blh t’kwn dgn orng corrupted mcm awk yea... still i’m enjoying although sometimes i’m embarrassed! (‘dentist’ yg plng trk awk buat sy malu, xkan lupa sampai bila2)

willing to climb the forth floor? Exercise man! Shape up!!!

Eat sushi like a pro, using chop stick like an idiot!!! Chopstick yg sy ambik dri sushi king slalu panggil sy srh gne dia. Sy lbih prefer pandang dia je...

Can u define perfect? Coz i’m not! I don’t want to disappoint anyone... sy tau mcm mna teruknya klu kita btl2 percykan smthng tpi at the end kecewa. I was not like what someone expected n she hurts me a lot by disappointing me to the maximum!

 u really hate the word BFF.coz there's no such thing as best friend forever. I hate BFF coz the word ‘FOREVER’ don’t exist in real life..

U know i don’t love anyone. U know i don’t trust anyone. Still u love me n trust me? Thanks for not considering me as ur friend....

*klu boring, blaja buat benda lain plak! Smthng yg awk jarang buat mcm mula blaja utk xam dari skrng. hehehe

raya...

raya thn ni lain skit. first time raya haji tanpa kakak sy. n mak msk aym je. x kisah sbb bedal briyani. hahaha lps sarapan, tgh lepak2, mak srh pgi umah brothers sy. ok, sy n sbg sy pgi. sume abg2 sy blk n meriah kt sana. x sangka ddk sna sampai pukul 3. masa mcm cpt sgt berlalu. sy ske sgt ble lepak dgn brothers sy sbb sy sorng je adk prmpn yg slalunya lepak dgn diorng. klu panggil anne(abg) ramai yg sahut. secara chorus plak tu.

thn ni diorng sembilih kambing sendiri dpn umah. WAA!!!! xnk trn! xnk trn! xnk trn! tunggu diorng kt ats je. lps sembelih sume tido kt ruang tamu. berterabur. mcm kem pelarian plak. bry baring, x sampai 5 minit, nyenyak trs. wah! hebat brothers sy ni. blk umah pukul 3, just ckp "bye anna" skali je, kesume brothers jwb. hahaha, rsa mcm seronook bila mcm tu. pukul 8 diorng plak dtng umah kami. ade sorng ni ajk g kluar jln2 je. skali berhenti kt dpn pusat reflexology. dh tu lepak sana sampai 11 lbh. dhla mkn blm apepun blm.

ade sorng abg ni, sblm ni x prnh rapat. slalunya, klu jumpa tanya khabar je. kira formal skit. skrng dh x mcm tu. dh sama mcm brothers sy yg lain. sy rasa dh tambah lg sorng abg dlm senarai brothers sy.

atta sy ddk umah je hri ni. nmpk sgt dia boring. atta sy buka sume jam n board kt umah n lap. lap kabinet TV skali. pas2 main laptop. wah! atta sy dh maju skrng. gaya mcm dh blh gune facebook dh. kt umah ade wireless n ank2 dia, msng2 ade laptop. slalunya atta sy termenung tgk ank2 dia msng main laptop.. skrng, ank2 plak termenung tgk atta main laptop... hahaha terbalik dh. terbaru, atta srh sy bgtau abg bli cabel connect tv n laptop. atta kta x puas tgk youtube kt laptop, kcik sgt, nk tgk kt tv plak.

dup! dup!

pgi raya, g umah brothers sy. raya lps diorng bgi sy minum wine, kali ni, sembelih kambing. WAAA!!!!

ok ok, relax... naik ats, nmpk lap top n online trs. wen post kt wall sy srh kutuk dia kt blog sy. hahaha

bc je post dia, benda pertama yg sy t'pk. Oh My God! bdk ni dh bosan, sy kene pegi check formspring skrng jugak! sah, ade 2 soalan. yg satu tu mmg confirm dia yg tny. soalan yg lgi satu tu xtau spe post. wen ade dlm list suspek sy buat masa skrng.

wen kan, bdk ni mmg pdn muka. sy dh bgtau awl2. xnk dgr. tgh2 mlm, dgn suara mcm tu plak tu. kan dia dh tls mcm2 kt twitter n blog dia. tapi kan, another half sy pk wen call dia pun bgs jugak. sbb dia dh mula buktikan ke'cheap'an diri dia. dia sendiri kata, dia byk gne bad words. kwn2 dia tu kta jgn maafkan. wah! kwn jns apala tu kan.

anyway, awk xyah risau. u hv ur own friends. kwn2 awk better than her friends. sy mmg x galakkan awk buka blog. sy xnk blog jadi tempat luahan perasaan awk mcm bdk tu buat kt blog dia tu. actually blog tmpt nk kongsi cite n whatsoever. bkn tempat utk mengutuk orng mcm sy n marah orng mcm dia... tpi, klu awk nk buka gak, it's ok, u r grown up. u know wht u r doing....

ptng tdi awk cri sy n i know i'm not helping. at least, sy p'cy sy dpt kurangkan rasa guiltiness terhdp dia dlm hati awk.

selamat hari raya aidil adha

semoga x gemuk makan byk daging

semoga bdk2 UM sume sedar dri xam blm hbs lgi

sempena aidil adha, sy korbankan perasaan kasih syng sy t'hdp someone.. hehehe

blur~

sy xtau nk post apa. dh byk kali sy taip n delete n taip n delete n taip n delete. dh siap marketing proposal versi bahasa melayu. seminggu sy siapkan versi melayu. skrng tgh buat versi BI. bru sehari 4 jam ddk dpn laptop, sparuh dh siap dh. bkn nk kata sy pandai english, just nk bgtau bertapa 'hebatnya' bahasa melayu sy... sampai ddk tunggu mna2 kwn melayu online n srh diorng translate. majoriti kwn2 melayu fb sy yg rajin online tgh mlm mmg kene.

skrng, tgh lyn lagu2 melodies romantic tamil... 

feels like on drugs...

comparing

ilham dri blog orng lain. gamba plak dri blog lgi sorng...

PAST TENSE

PRESENT TENSE

dear brain, sorry for overloading you with projects n my studies...
dear tummy, sorry for filling u with food most of the time n make u bigger
dear pillow, sorry for burdening u with my huge head for more than 12 hours a day...
dear heart, thank you for a better life :)))

"dia pun ank kami juga"

itulah kata2 parents sy kt keluarga mentua kak thana beberapa minit lps. sape kak thana? panjang critanya. klu rajin, bclah sampai hbs...


kak sy rapat dgn 2 orng ni sjk msk sklh menengah. sorng kak sara n sorng lgi kak thana. kak sara jns yg main2 skit. kak thana jns yg matang. mereka bertiga ni rapat sgt. diorng mula lepak kt rumah sy time diorng form 3 kot. lama2, family kami bertiga pun rapat. ayah kak sara pemandu teksi, so, sblm fmly sy bli kereta, klu pgi Kl, mesti pgi dgn ayah kak sara sampai sedara mara sy sume kenal ayah kak sara. keluarga mereka berdua slalu tolong keluarga sy bila kami dilanda.... sy lbih prefer guna perkataan "musibah". bila keluarga sy dilanda musibah.


mereka bertiga slalu kata, klu diorng kawen, diorng nk suami diorng bertiga pun rapat. thn lps, kak sy nikah pada 30/10 n sanding pada 1/11. thn ni, kak thana pula kawen pada 12/11 n b'sanding hri ni 13/11.


kak thana kawen kt tempat suami dia smlm n bersanding kt sabak bernam hri ni. sepatutnya, pengantin prmpn trn kt umah ibubapa dia sendiri. tpi umah kak thana kecik n adik beradik dia ramai. kak thana call umah sy pgi tdi bgtau mak sy dia nk dtng umah. mak sy pun gembira sgt. tiba2 umah sy jdi mcm kak sy sendiri yg kawen. kak thana x pgi umah dia, dia trs trn kt umah sy utk bersiap pgi sanding. benda pertama yg dia ckp lps dia trn, ni umah ibu sy. :)))) emotional...


ok, orng yg x tau sgt psl hal2 karut-marut tradisi india, mgkn x fhm benda yg sy tgh cite ni. xp, trskan m'bc... tgh bersiap, kak sara n fmly dia dtng berkmpng kt umah sy. apa lgi, meriah sakan. lps sume dh bersiap, kami sume pgi sama2 ke dwn. parents kak thana tgh tunggu kehadiran kami sume. rasa mcm terbalik sgt situasi tu. kami blk dulu dri dwn sblm pasangan pengantin blk.


lps pengantin sampai umah, diorng cpt2 packing sbb kene blk KL, ada kenduri kt sana esk. time kak thana tgh packing, mentua kak thana yg asalnya tgh ddk n tunggu kt keta msk umah. ayah sy pgi sambut diorng n sembang2 mcm dh lama kenal. slalunya, sblm ank prmpn dia pgi umah mentua, mak diorng akn bgi 1 dulang diisi beberapa benda yg dianggap baik. itu sebagai tanda penyerahan ank dia kepada keluarga mertua n ucpan 'semoga bahagia'. mak sy buat benda yg sama, mak sy cpt2 cri 1 dulang, isi dgn 2 kg gula, sehelai sari, 6 buah epal n bunga melur. tambah dgn hadiah oven yg dibungkus. kak thana rasa terharu sgt.


dalam islam, mmglah haram umat dia sujud selain sujud time solat. tpi orng india lain skit. lps mak sy serahkan dulang tu kt kak thana, kak thana panggil suami dia n ayah sy yg kt ruang tamu. dia srh mak sy n ayah sy berdiri bersama, dia n suami dia tunduk n sujud dpn ibubapa sy. sy rasa sgt2 terkejut. ibubapa sy lgilah, kaku trs. itu spatutnya dibuat kt ibubapa KANDUNG dia...mak sy cpt2 cari duit n bgi kt kak thana, tanda ucapan supaya dimurahkan rezeki. lps bgn dri sujud, suami kak thana kata yg kak thana slalu bgtau suami dia, dia anggap ibubapa sy sama mcm ibubapa dia. keadaan agak emotional di situ.


keluarga mentua kak thana tgk je sume benda yg tgh berlaku mcm menonton drama. sblm blk, mak sy bgtau keluarga mertua kak thana "dia pun ank kami jugak" disambng dgn beberapa benda yg slalunya ibu seorng ank bgtau kt keluarga mentua ank dia sblm dia menyerahkan ank prmpn dia kt keluarga baru dia.


lps sume benda ni, sy naik ats nk tkr baju. ddk termenung kjp. mmg parents sy lyn kak thana n kak sara mcm ank sendiri. mak sy prnh marah kak thana n kak sara, sama mcm marah ank dia. tiba2 rasa cemburu skit. sy x prnh bgi rajesh (kwn rapat sy sejak sy darjah 1) peluang untuk rapat dgn keluarga sy. fmly sy mmg knl fmly dia, tpi x serapat fmly kwn2 kak sy. sy x prnh bgi rajesh peluang untuk msk campur kehidupan sy sehingga sy form 3...


apepun, ucapan sy, kak thana semoga bahagia. awk pun akak sy juga...

Kak thana n suami dia kt umah sy...

knp sy cite benda ni? bkn nk b'bangga or nk buktikan pape. sebagai penghormatan n kebanggaan sy terhadap hubungan keluarga kami n persahabatan kakak-kakak sy. klu sy ditakdirkan jdi orng terkenal n tls sebuah buku,(ceh, berangan sudah...), for sure sy akn tls psl mereka bertiga n perkara yg berlaku tdi... another sweet memory. the best ending for a tiring day... :)))))

jumaat?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!

hri ni bgn lmbt skit. bgn je nmpk adik sy lalu. eh, bdk ni x g sklh ke? yela, dh hbs xam, mesti rajin ponteng dh. lps buat sume yg spatutnya, trnla nk breakfast. lps mkn, time tgh basuh pinggan kt dapur, nmpk aym kt tepi sinki. eh, knp mak nk msk aym? may b ade orng nk dtng umah kot. time nk tny mak, mak tgh busy layan telefon. ok... bc paper...
tgh bc tu, mak srh brshkan tingkat ats. slalunya tingkat ats, seminggu skali je brshkan sbb sy sorng je yg gne tingkat ats tu. ok... mayb ade orng nk dtng umah kot... dh brshkan tingkat ats, tgh trn, nmpk atta (abah dlm bahasa tamil) balik. aik! slalunya atta blk time nk lunch. mayb t'tinggal barang kot. sekejap tu, nmpk atta tkr baju n bersantai ats sofa... plik... x g kdai ke? spela yg nk dtng tu. dgr bunyi sms kt hp. dlm sms tu mention smthng mcm hri ni hri jumaat. huh? cpt2 check calender hp.


YaAllah!!!! dh hri jumaat rupanya...


x sdr dri btl. tgh bajet hri rabu bru.. patutla ade aym, mak msk aym stiap jumaat. patutla atta blk. beberapa jam sblm solat jumaat slalunya kdai tutup n atta mmg blk n bersantai kt umah. patutla srh brshkan tingkat ats, 2 hri lgi sy dh nk blk UM  :(((

y????

i think i miss someone who is not my friend. yesterday, smthng reminds me of her suddenly. but it last for maybe 5 minutes. surprisingly, i dreamt her last night. or ,may b it's not me, she is the one who miss me.

my cousin quoted smthng from Times magazine once when i told her bout a dream.

when people appear in your dreams, 

it's because that person wants to see you.

err... why do she wants to see me? i don't think do.

hey...

1. no more bad words pls.... replace all those words with better words. like mickey mouse, donald duck, donkey n all.. i hate bad words... and it's not good for you
2. no more cursing pll ok? just remember one thing, when one person is cursed, two graves are dugged. u know what that mean... karma, what goes around, comes around...
3. cry in front of me, i'll wipe ur tears n give u my shoulder to cry. don't feel shy. after all, i'm ur friend. i would like to be there for u. let me hold u...
4. it's hard to forget. yes, but, lets start with forgive. once u let urself to hv a better new life, u'll start to forget. live your life with no regrets
5. u don't have to swear. u don't need those who don't believe in u. so, stop swearing and go on with ur wonderful life. leave all the ignorant behind...
6. r u angry? r u sad? don't say a word. coz u don't have to listen to any. just take ur time. i'll let u think alone, but i won't leave u alone. 
7. it's ok if u don't love yourself. but love me pls... so that when u love me, u won't do anything hurts me, so you won't hurt urself coz i love u....

for a friend who is not my friend...

formspring...

sejak 2 menjak ni, klu buka formspring, mesti heart attack dgn soalan2 dia sume. sape2 yg ade facebook sy, taula... yg x prasan, silalah buat lawatan ke profile sy. ni mesti bdk wen yg ke'boringan'an kt umah tu... mulalah aktiviti nakal dia...

mlm tdi chat dgn ungu. dia dpt hidu smthng yg sy pk blm mau cite kt dia lgi. at last, mengalah gak. terbukala sebuah kisah ehem... malu dibuatnya... nsb baik bdk tu xd kt dpn, hbs merah muka sy dia buat...

at last, sy dh mula packing nk blk kolej minggu ni. dgr cite cafe x buka, nmpk gayanya stiap hri jln ke mahsa sorng2 la ni.... dhla time sy blk kolej, sume nk blk umah, mcm dh xkan ade orng kt kolej. :( xp2. xam punya psl, sabar jela ye, pgi sana nanti, tulis surat aduan 10 m/s n hantar kt master kolej. saje nk isi masa lapang...

"That's The Way It Is"

Song for someone who is having a hard time. i'll be there for u if u let me to.


I can read your mind and I know your story
I see what you're going through
It's an uphill climb, and I'm feeling sorry
But I know it will come to you

Don't surrender 'cause you can win
In this thing called love

When you want it the most there's no easy way out
When you're ready to go and your heart's left in doubt
Don't give up on your faith
Love comes to those who believe it
And that's the way it is

When you question me for a simple answer
I don't know what to say, no
But it's plain to see, if you stick together
You're gonna find a way, yeah

So don't surrender 'cause you can win
In this thing called love

When you want it the most there's no easy way out
When you're ready to go and your heart's left in doubt
Don't give up on your faith
Love comes to those who believe it
And that's the way it is

When life is empty with no tomorrow
And loneliness starts to call
Baby, don't worry, forget your sorrow
'Cause love's gonna conquer it all,
ALL

When you want it the most there's no easy way out
When you're ready to go and your heart's left in doubt
Don't give up on your faith
Love comes to those who believe it
And that's the way it is


That's the way it is
That's the way it is, babe
Don't give up on your faith
Love comes to those who believe it
And that's the way it is. 

projek baru

sy tgh buat satu projek baru yg akn berlangsung sem dpn. committee member sume dh ade. tinggal nk trskan keje je. aslnye, central committee sume nmpk hebat. sy sorng je ganjil kt c2. igtkan diorng sume excellent sbb professional katakan. bru sy tau sorng pun xd experience. xd pengalaman xp lagi, blh blaja. cuba minta nasihat drpd yg ade pengalaman. mcm penasihat kami tu, senior, cbe tny dia. Ya Allah. knp mesti sy yg stiap kali kene dgn group mcm ni? skrng, klu keje sy x jln, program ni cancel trs. masalahnya, mna guideline sy????? igtkan sy ni dekan fakulti ke? adoi!!!! pening dibuatnya. skrng sy kene rush sume benda, hbs ble sy nk blaja? igtkan sy xd xam? ajk sy xd xam? ajk sy b'nasib baik sume. sy jns yg m'p'tahankan ajk dpn sume orng sbb personally sy mendera diorng sampai keje diorng jln. lbh2 lgi diorng junior. mmg xkan ade orng brani kutuk mereka. tpi klu sy buat mcm tu, diorng akn mula salahkan sy... skrng ntah nk kesiankan junior ke nk kesiankan dri sy...

tido...

sy: mak, skit kpala, rsa mcm pening2.
mak: tu sbb tido overtime tu...
sy:  :(


hehehe. dh hri isnin rupanya. esk dh nk hri selasa. sy still x jumpa beg yg sy bw nota FM. xp la, time blk mesti jumpa punya. oh ye, dgr cite cafe kk9 tutup. kesian kwn2 sy, hati lara, bam bam, muka baik, tiga serangkai n lain2 yg x blk lgi tu. sabar ye kwn2 ku.


blog sy menipu sy, beberapa hri lps, statistic orng stalk sy dh sampai 365, pas2 342, igtkan sy yg salah tgk. hri ni 332 plak. aish, mcm mna blh trn????

dgr cite markah money n banking dh kluar. mati2 sy xnk tgk markah. tapi ungu menyebabkan sy check jugak markah sy. ungu, sy dh x bad mood. hehehe kan sy dh kata, sy dh blaja redha je dgn sume benda.... terutamanya dgn En.Sharin saad tu!!!!! Ya Allah ya tuhan ku, semoga sem dpn dan sem yg akn dtng kami x dpt dia sbgai lecture lgi. AMIN... gamba ni sy google. ceh, sy t'nmpk benda lain gak...

MASTER OF BUSINESS (ACCOUNTING), MONASH UNIVERSITY, AUSTRALIA

POSTGRADUTE DIPLOMA IN ADVANCED ACCOUNTING, MONASH UNIVERSITY, AUSTRALIA

B.COMMERCE (ACCOUNTING&FINANCE) MURDOCH UNIVERSITY, MURDOCH UNIVERSITY, AUSTRALIA

patutla muka mcm foreigner.... nmpk sgt sy ni xd keje kan.... pgi google mamat ni plak.
i miss my baby cyng... ada yg tny knp x prnh ada gamba buah hati kt blog. sbb dia someone yg sgt special, x mainla blog sume. gf sy n buah hati sy 2 orng yg berbeza tau. gf sy yg in relationship dgn sy kt facebook tu. buah hati sy, hehehe.....

i-city...

pg open house deepavali dato ****** x tau camne nk eja nama dia. ala, yg owner lotus tula.... punyala bsr umah dia, sy x ske lngsng. tgk umah pun blh tau mcm mna relationship antara dia n ank2 dia. dh hbs open house tu, naik keta n x tny pgi mna. tpi sy tau kami x blk umah. walaupun sy tgh x btl sbb x tido, still sy blh detect highway yg kami lalu tu jln nk pgi shah alam. pas2 bru t'pk nk tny kita sume tgh pgi mna. bila dgr i-city, rasa xcited pun ada, rsa mcm xnk pgi pun ade. tpi lps sampai sana tu, sy pk redha jela dgn papepun yg berlaku.

sy bkn jens yg suka tangkap gamba n posing2 sume. sy lbh prefer jln melenggang dgn spe2 yg sanggup jln b'sma sy sambil sembang2, tgk keliling, n tgk gelagat orng sume... tpi sy pgi dgn geng yg salah hri tu. stiap 50 meter mesti berhenti stgh jam sbb nk tngkap gamba. haish....

baru jln sekejap, tiba2 angin kuat sgt. dh rasa mcm x sedap hati pas2. ramai yg blk dh. smkn lama smkn kuat plak tu anginnya. pasir sume msk mata... still tabah n kami sume jln lagi.. pas2 hujan plak. dh x tabah dh :((( basah... sy t'ingin sgt2 nk tgk polar bear putih tu kt i-city. x berkesempatan...

ni gamba google. heheh. sy x bw hp hri tu. ntah knp tiba2 rasa x syng hp skjp. ialah, x syng mcm mna pun, klu xd hp, tido x lena gak...

P/S- mcm mna sy nk tgr orng yg buat2 x nmpk or nyorok lps nmpk sy? so, sy pun buat2 x nmpk la. sy xkan ngaku sampai akhir yg sy nmpk spe2...

30 hours

alkisah sy x tido 30 jam. bermula hri khamis, pkul 7 sy bgn sblm maghrib. plan nk g blik yana tgk paranormal acvtivity 2. roommates dia pun xd, roomates sy pun xd... pgi blik dia pun dh nk pukul 12 tgh mlm... agak kecewa sbb cite dia x seram. dh tu, x tido sampai subuh dh. dgr je azan, trs balik blik. sampai sana, plan nk pg wangsa maju ptng2. so, packing n bersihkan blik jap sblm nk tido. bru nk baring mak dh call kta nk dtng ambik sy. aiseh, dh tu, rush mandi n blm pakai tudung pun, dh sampai dh... alamak!!! g umah orng, mkn2 kt sna, tgh boring2, pgi masjid india plak... rounding2 jap pas2 pgi open house deepavali. lps tu, igtkan akn blk n bleh golek ats katil. blh plak diorng pgi shah alam... xcited sgt2 sbb pgi i-city. walaupun sparuh hati pgi i-city ats sbb yg tertentu, tpi sy try enjoy kt sna. ksh i-city sy cite esk ye.... blk umah dh pukul 1. fuh...


sabtu, kene bgn awl sbb nk g majlis p'kawenan orng :((( rsa diri mcm zombi je spanjang hri... sparuh sedar sbb  x ckp tido. dh tau tgh x btl tu, bkn nk ddk diam2 menggatal pegi b'tegur dgn sume orng. slalu nye kan... klu dh ngantuk sy slalunye buat hal je, xdla merepek. still b'hrp sgt2 sy x merapu pape kt spe2 kt pekawenan tu....

p/s for someone who we stalk each other. i moved on although it takes more than 2 years... at the end of the day, u'll think tht u wasted ur time. just don't want u to regret dear. wish u good luck...

few things...

sy dh bli pemadam!!!!! bkn stabilo, faber-castell, tapi xp, dh bli pemadan, xcited padam byk benda hri ni. hheeeeee

roommate sume dh blk. sdng menikmati saat2 bersendirian di bilik...

makro x gerak2 lgi, esk nk g wangsa maju so hopefully blh hbskan sblm sy pgi wangsa maju...

kwn2 sy dh bengong sbb blaja. msng2 overload. ptng tdi pgi kaunter kunci utk isi borang stay kolej 2 minggu lgi... msng2 buat lawak. sebut makro dgr mangkuk, plng x blh blah, terpacak dpn kaunter tapi x kata pape. abg kaunter dh pandang dgn muka takut dh.ade plak isi borang tiru sy. haish!!! lupa nombor bilik la. mcm2... mmg sume tgh x btl...

sepanjang hari sgtla busy download crita sampai ntah dh brape cite dh download..

Bon Jovi - (You Want To) Make A Memory- new obsession. nth dh brape kali sy dgr. ni sume sbb wen la ni.... anyway, wen, i really enjoy this song...

i pushed someone out of my life by breaking the person's heart n now, i think i miss the person... :(

dh ade sorng ni yg kembali. should i break his heart????? what else should i do to get rid of him?????? tlngla jgn buat sy jdi jht mcm ni. sy just tak nak bgi hope. sy tau mcm mna teruk nya klu dikecewakan... so???

DENTIST!!!! ok, no more dentist.... but no doctors pls....

sy mmg x prnh bercinta n i'm dared to say that friendship hurts more than love.

help!!!

apa yg sedang terjadi pda sy? dlm sehari, sy hbskan 2 bab je???? smthng yg bkn dri sy. spatutnya sy dh hbskan makro n melangkah ke MA. tpi tak.... tido byk. sempat tgk crita plak tu... pas2 ajk orng pgi kfc lgi....

tadi ada kwn sorng ni dtng blik n kata blh stay kolej minggu dpn n cafe mmg buka. igtkan nk stay kolej je trs tpi mak srh blk gak! okla... tgkla mcm mna xam nanti... haish, mcm dh xd smgt dh ni... harapan pun nipis je...

THE WORD OF THE DAY..... kasi telan microfon oleh Yana Ali.... 

dh mkn kfc ni dh ngantuk la plak... xp2, movie timeeeee...... :)))))))))

second day...

koperasi tak buka n still x bli pemadam!!!! :'( pgi pekan buku jauh sgt...!!! hish!!! tension xd pemadan so lbh byk tido berbanding blaja. mkn 1 jam, blaja+berkhayal 8 jam tido 15 jam.... yela, tgh tls2 tiba2 t'slh, n cri pemadan xd, frust so pgi tido. bgn n same thing happened.!! hehehe

ooooh stabilo ku... sob! sob! sob!




makro x hbs2 lgi. benda yg sgt plik. spatutnya makro dh hbs dlm sehari stgh. ni dh nk 2 hri, 3 bab terakhir tu still x selak2 lgi... terasa mcm nk tgk cite hri ni. klu dh hbs makro, rsanya akn tgk cite. xnk trs smbng MA. yeay!

first day...

pemadam!!!!! huaaaa..... pemadam sy hilang. spe yg curi n bila korng curi? permulaan yg sgt x baik. sy nk PEMADAM!!!!! tapi xp, gf sy dh bgi smgt study tanpa pemadam hahaha


bru lps chap 1, roomates n bdk blik sblh  n kwn mreka dh mula tgk cite. godaan pertama. sabar ye.... xp, ade chipsmore n nescafe n nota makro yg lgi best kt ats meja b'banding cite tu. (ayt sgt x ikhlas...)
dh nk naik chap 7, tiba2 diorng dh mula jerit2. aish, tgk paranormal activity mlm2. mna x jerit. sy hilang mood tapi mampu b'thn sampai chap 9. AAAH!!! tido!

what!!?

"just say sorry and everything will be alright..."
sy rasa mcm nk bgi penampar je kt orng yg ckp mcm tu. ohh, senang2 jela kan buat salah dulu, pas2 bila dh kantoi, minta maaf, bila x dimaafkan, bgi ayt "ak tau ak bersalah, ak just mampu minta maaf je" hello, maaf utk orng yg buat salah secara x sengaja ok... klu terpaksa, minta maaf dlu n then bru buat tu, blhla consider skit. senang skit nk maafkan.

study week

skrng dh study week. so, mulalah kehidupan mlm sy. sy akn berjaga setiap mlm n tido sepanjang siang... just bgn sblm zohor, mandi, mkn, tunggu asar, lps tu... tido blk!!!! seronoknye..... hehehe klu spe2 nk contact sy, sila contact lps isyak, sbb klu sy dh tido, perdana menteri call pun sy xkan lyn... sy akn set telefon kt silent n smbng tido....


sebenarnyakan, sy rasa, tido siang lgi puas dri tido mlm, try la...